To be in love is merely to be in a perpetual state of anesthesia

So, we're doing this rough rider's tale thing for Ornellas and I was writing an ddeciding, do I really belong in the Academy? like there is nothing that I can do that is considered art, not really anyways. Like, im not good at art, i suck at writing and there really is no music aspect in it, so why am i there? I saw this picture and thought, wouldnt it be amazing if I could take pictures like this? who wouldnt want to be good at SOMETHING. anyways, but that's not the case. Like Jon, I also wish I could explain myself to you guys, not like most people read this thing anyways, but for the people who do, I'm sorry that you wasted (insertamountofminutes) reading this pathetic post.