ohdearGOD.

wow. so i havent been blogging in a while, not that there hasn't been anything blog worthy, i just didnt think anyone read it anymore, and i dont think anyone will, but now im doing it for me. anyways, i started a new blog. kinda just to write down all the songs i think are badass and to do other random stuff. this is going to now become my serious thoughts and philosophy blog i guess. we'll see. anyways, here it is: RANTS!MONEY$MUSIC!

Radio Killah.

Okay, so it's like almost 12:30 am and I have school in the morning, but I could care less at the moment. Today was AMAZAZING. Like BANANAS-IN-YOUR-FACE awesome. Usually, during the week, I'm just like, I can't wait till Friday, this past week, I was like " I can't wait till Sunday." We (Jamba Ward) had our Christmas party, loved it. We had a scavenger hunt. So much fun. We had to drive all through town to take pictures, find clues, find random stuff and things like that. Afterwards, we ended up at Ice Palace, which is where we ate, played the name game (I sucked at it.) and exchanged our Secret Santa gifts. Great fun, and I got to see Gramps, Kawika and Justin.

Omg, I found this BADASS shirt, and I don't know where I can find it. Now i want to make shirts for certain people for Christmas and I don't know what I want to put on them. Ideas please?????

"I'm Fly, I'm Fly, I'm Flyin high, I'm Fly, I'm Fly, I'm Flyin by."

I've been listening to this song, (the one on my myspace) and I think I am ADDICTED to this song. It's like the anthem of a hustlah and a chick that has her shit in check and won't take shit from anyone. It appeals to me. Kind of repetitve though.

So I just priced my Christmas presents, and I think I'm screwed to the max. I get paid on Tuesday, but I don't know if I'll have enough, choices choices. 

Anyways, It's almost 1:00 am and I think that I'm finally done with this blog. Too much on the mind.

Ashley, how do you like the page? Does it meet your standards? Glad to be of help. And I really don't mind rambling in my comments.

Girl, They Won't Believe it.

1. Put Your iTunes on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write down the name of the song no matter how silly it sounds!
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Tag at least 10 friends.
6. Anyone tagged has to do the same, because fun pointlessness spreads like a virus.

If someone says, “Are you okay?” you say?
- "Do You Feel" - The Rocket Summer

-Well, that was cool.

How would you describe yourself?
- "Shake it Like a Pom Pom" - Missy Elliot
"Slow motion, freeze. Stop for the camera. Paparazzi wanna see,Cheese."

What do you like in a guy/girl?
- "Radar" - Britney Spears
"Confidence is a must, Cockiness is a plus."

How do you feel today?
- "Isn't She Lovely" - Stevie Wonder
Life and love are the same. wow.

What is your life’s purpose?
- "I Hate Everything About You" - Three Days Grace
To not let this eat me alive.

What is your motto?
- "Fa-Fa-Fa" - Datarock
"Cause I'm gunna ride fast, going nowhere And I left my brain in the past I'm gunna ride fast To where I don't care"

What do your friends think of you?
- "Between Me and You" - Ja Rule ft. 
nah. they dont think that.

What do you think of your parents?
- "I'm Waiting" - The All American Rejects
"One Question: What can't be done? You tear me down with the same thing."

What do you think about very often?
- "Work That" - Mary J. Blige
"I just wanna be myself"

What is 2 + 2?
- "Send Me an Email" - J-Shin
"What The Hell?!"

What do you think of your best friend?
- "Broken Wings" - Flyleaf
No Comment.

What do you think of the person you like?
- "Whatever You Like freestyle" - Trey Songz
I don't even like anyone.

What is your life story?
- "Creator" - Santogold
"The rules I break got me a place up on the radar"

What do you want to be when you grow up?
- "Rock Bottom" - Pleasure P. ft. Lil Wayne
"Now your laying on the bathroom floor asking yourself what happened?"

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
- "Cobrastyle" - Robyn
LMFAO, no comment.|

What will you dance to at your wedding?
- "Phone Home" - lil Wayne
Dancing to it: maybe. Actually calling home,: NEGATIVE.

What will they play at your funeral?
- "Everywhere I Go" - katherine McPhee
weird.

What is your hobby/interest?
- "Gimme Dat " - The Ambassador
Choreographing songs like this.

What is your biggest fear?
- "Better Man" - K. Smith ft. Omarion
That I'll just settle when there's a better man out there for me.

What is your biggest secret?
- "T-Shirt" - Shontelle
I still have the t-shirt you left at my house.

What do you think of your friends?
- "Is There A Place" - Danyo Cummings
well, there you go.

What will you post this as?
- "Girl They Won't Believe it" - Joss Stone
they never so.

-S.

Facebook Much?!

Wow, I was on myspace today, and they now have a "People you May Know" thing on the side of the homepage, and I was all good until I remembered that Facebook had it first. Amazing isn't it? Myspace was the first "Online Community" but it seems like Facebook is the better one. Myspace is copying pretty much everything that Facebook has, but more privacy.

Lady Hustler

Hello there. Welcome to the inner thoughts of Shani. enjoy the ride =)

Well, there's not much to really tell you, because contrary to popular belief, my life is actually quite boring, or so it would seem at times. 

I had a pretty good weekend I guess. I was all excited because I was supposed to go Christmas shopping this weekend but then I remember I don't get paid till the 16th, so yeah, lameness. 

There's not much I can do about that.  Saturday, I got to work at the Waikiki Jamba, and it was so boring. NO ONE came in. and the people who came in, I think they kind of just bumped into it. It's in a really odd location. Then all of a sudden, the fire alarm goes off, and we don't know what to do, so I go to the Starbucks and ask what's going on, and apparently that happens all the time, what a weird store. i think that's it for the weekend, lame huh?

My countdown has begun, school gets out on the 19th, for those people who actually go on the last day of school, I think I'm gonna go beach that day, not like there's anything that I need to make up, which is the real purpose of that day. Anyways, I think that lowschool should be honored. We were at school on friday trying to go see it and the DOE blocked the site, which means that they're doing something right, in my opinion. anyways, I really want one of their shirts, badass.

on another note altogether, I can't wait till Christmas this year. I always love christmas, but this year will be EXTRA special because my grandma's coming and I haven't seen her in like forever. She's like my favorite person in my entire family. Even though she's just gonna be here for like 4 days, it'll be the best.

That's pretty much for now. Nothing of great importance.

If You Say So...

"No Sir, well I don't want to be the blame, not anymore."

Well, there's not much to blog about, except that i hate the Macs at school because I have extreme difficulties trying to get my daily fix of literary romance =) it is quite disappointing. But what i did get to read (from the preview of blogs I follow) got me to thinking. Is it really better for people to type mindless drivel for people to read or wait for something that they really feel should be posted and make the people who read their stuff wait? Well, i don't know, because not many people actually take the time to read my stuff, I tend to type long, but that's besides the point. I wish I always had something meaningful to say, or at least something interesting. But whatever. As long as I know that some people are reading, then I guess i owe it to them to actually post something, but be forewarned, I'm weird and my stuff may not make sense.

Okay, since i got that over with, I guess i should get to it. So, like most people who read this, I am getting ready for life after high school and I have to say, I'm not doing a very good job at it. Procrastination is a deadly disease, it sneaks up on you and devours you like a fat lady at an all you can eat buffet. With a little less than 3 weeks till winter break then 3rd quarter will come. If I don't move fast enough,  I'll miss the deadline for my running start classes and that will fxck my plans up. I haven't started the application process and i'm starting to think that i might not get to it. The highlight of my winter break will be filling out my FAFSA papers online with my mom. can't wait. Well, that's all for now I guess.

-Shani

Love is Lost.

I dont remember the last time I saw your face and my heart lit up at the fact that you were still here. Ready for anything and everything that life threw at us. You have completely and utterly abandoned me. It's not my fault.
"I never wanted to say this, You never wanted to stay. I put my faith in you, so much faith and then you just threw it away" It never mattered to you that I never had a choice. That If I could, I would have lived with you and stayed, but as I look at the things you post on the biggest stage ever, the internet, I begin to wonder, what good would have come for me to stay there? Would I be watching it from up close or would I have been a part of it? Would you have even done it to begin with? there's nothing I can say to myself to make myself feel like I'm not a douche, but that's life. this happens everytime something good comes from this giant "Where's Waldo" picture. We find one good thing, and look up to see that we're surrounded by things far more enticing, but we have no idea what effect they have on us till it's too late. I saw you, like reading your story in a book. I already knre what was going to happen and no matter how much I screamed and pleaded for you to watch out, that there were people who cared what happened to you, it didn't matter, cause I look up and realize I'm talking to a screen. Nothing I can or will do has anything to do with anymore. I'm sorry all I did was care, and that you didn't care enough to notice.